About Harmony

Hi, I’m Harmony, but you probably already knew that.  Anyhow, this blog is going to be my view of life dealing with cancer.  Or maybe dealing around cancer.  Seriously, you don’t want this crappy disease defining your life, right?  Right.  So moving right along, since I was diagnosed in September 2009 with Stage IV cholangiocarcinoma (bile duct cancer – who knew, right?), I’ve moved through so many emotions and I decided that cancer or not, life goes on.  I’ve still got things to do, life to live, people to love.

I’m 32 and the mother of a great little boy, Blane.  His dad is pretty great too.  They are what motivate me to not just fight, but live.  No matter if it’s a chemo week or not, we still have a life, a home, and things to do.  Why waste days with fear and sadness when I can spend that time enjoying them, and my friends and family?  Seriously, I could be around for decades (really, they come up with new cancer tricks all the time), so why spend that much of my time as if I’m already gone? 

I want people to see that you can live with cancer, or around it…..

11 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Pete Restivo
    Jul 20, 2010 @ 19:43:00

    Harm Please send me your address I would like to send you a dive DVD I made . Photos of the YO-257 & San Pedro diving in Hawaii . The music to it is the Black Eyed Peas .

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  2. Anonymous
    Aug 30, 2010 @ 19:46:42

    So glad to have realized your keeping a blog! thinking of you all the time!

    Jackie

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  3. Jed
    Oct 21, 2010 @ 14:42:47

    Harm, Just letting you know that your D2D family is thinking of you. Tiller let us know about your blog. Keep up the good fight.

    Jed

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    • Mutti
      Feb 05, 2012 @ 00:21:07

      Thank you, Jed. I will treasure everyone’s blog…saw them for the first time today, and you all filled my heart with a bittersweet joy. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of her and miss her, yet I can finally sincerely express through my tears of happiness all the memories of my beautiful daughter that I do have, rather than my sorrow at the loss.

      Harmony loved the part of her life devoted to scuba – and all of you were a part of that. Hugs to each and every one.

      Harmony’s mom, Susan

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  4. Mom
    Nov 20, 2010 @ 07:53:02

    Just in case I haven’t said it lately…I sure do love you, My Beauty.

    Mutti

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  5. Jennifer P.
    May 02, 2011 @ 09:39:26

    Harm,
    You gave me faith and hope. I will never forget your wonderful spirit and your great love for life and for your family. It is no wonder that your name was “Harmony”. It is a very, very sad day and my heart and my tears go to your family who have lost such a beautiful soul.
    Your star will always shine bright.
    Requiescat in pace.

    Gone from My Sight
    “I am standing upon the seashore.
    A ship at my side spreads her white
    sails to the morning breeze and starts
    for the blue ocean.
    She is an object of beauty and strength.
    I stand and watch her until at length
    she hangs like a speck of white cloud
    just where the sea and sky come
    to mingle with each other.
    Then, someone at my side says;
    “There, she is gone!”
    “Gone where?”
    Gone from my sight. That is all.
    She is just as large in mast and hull
    and spar as she was when she left my side
    and she is just as able to bear her
    load of living freight to her destined port.
    Her diminished size is in me, not in her.
    And just at the moment when someone
    at my side says, “There, she is gone!”
    There are other eyes watching her coming,
    and other voices ready to take up the glad
    shout;
    “Here she comes!”

    And that is dying…

    ~Henry Van Dyke~

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  6. Jennifer P.
    Jul 15, 2011 @ 15:23:12

    There are many postings and messages about Harmony from her fellow dive buddies. Here is the link in case her family ever wants to read them.
    You will be truly missed. Heaven just got a most beautiful angel.

    http://divertodiver.scubadiving.com/tm.aspx?m=217980&mpage=1&key=great&#217980

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    • Mutti
      Feb 05, 2012 @ 00:24:53

      Thank you, Jen. I will treasure everyone’s blog…saw them for the first time today, and you all filled my heart with a bittersweet joy. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of her and miss her, yet I can finally sincerely express through my tears of happiness all the memories of my beautiful daughter that I do have, rather than my sorrow at the loss.

      Harmony loved the part of her life devoted to scuba – and all of you were a part of that. Hugs to each and every one.

      Harmony’s mom, Susan

      Reply

  7. Momma
    Oct 04, 2013 @ 10:58:22

    Miss you like crazy, my Beauty

    Mutti

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  8. Mutti
    Mar 01, 2014 @ 18:14:54

    I was going through a big box (one of many) filled with pictures and cards. With a smile, I read Mother’s Day, birthday and Valentine’s Day cards from you as a child and teen, as well as letters and “just because” cards you gave me. My heart is full remembering you back then… You were such an intuitive gal, also vulnerable and generous. You grew into such a wonderful woman. I miss that little girl, the teen, the woman. I’m so glad that I saved these gifts from you. Love you, my Beauty…

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  9. Mutti
    Oct 28, 2014 @ 23:11:16

    It’s late and I can’t sleep so I decided to read some of your blog…again…because I am missing you. I love your sense of humor and smiled often reading your words.

    It’s all about “love”, isn’t it? Life is all about love. And you are so loved, my Beauty. Miss you like crazy.

    Mutti

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